Author's Pov

Sathya successfully removed the jasmine flower from her hair... He came and stood beside her... She raised her eyes at him Questioning him what!!

"What was that..... Should I consider your peck as you like me despite me showing Zero interest in this marriage before... In fact just a moment before only I noticed your Features clearly... "

Sathya rose, cleared the items from the dressing table, seated herself upon it, and gestured for him to take the stool she had occupied moments earlier.

He obeyed and waited for her answer... She smiled at him...

"I am not that much busy not to notice my fiancé who is my husband now....I can understand you have too much to handle so it's forgivable.... And finally decided to make use of your suspension period by getting married.... That's quite impressive... "

He closed his eyes with his palm his expression was exactly like those ones shown in the Sensodine paste Ad......the difference is they show in a closeup slow motion.. While here it happened just for a few seconds and he looked up with an embarrassing smile making her giggle.

"Please stop that..... You know reality is completely different from movies right... In movies, police officers get promotions for encounters but in reality suspension and transfer are the only appreciation you get for being righteous and honest.....

And don't even ask about the Human Rights Commission's questions... "

He said in distress...

"So you got transferred too? Interesting but surely not surprised ACP sir.......when you have to join back in work..."

She asked him...

"Yeah... And I have to report and join next week..."

"Hmmm... Can you tell me why you hate to get married and commit all these years you are already 34 "

She asked him leaning back on the mirror.. He took a deep breath and explained...

"Don't mistake me it's not like I hate to get married and settle down... It's just that I feel I don't give much time to my family already and adding up new members in my life is like  I am voluntarily inviting extra guilt....

And due to my character and strictness I always get these kind of rewards so I keep on moving from place to place.......

You know.... I don't know how to explain that "

"Then what made you change your stand point and say yes to marry me"

He smiled...

"Because of my Anna.... He knows exactly how to irritate me as well as convince me for something.....

And frankly speaking I am not a saint and surely not going to live a life of bhramachari.... most important factor for me agreeing to this was my friend Ravidran's daughter Ahilya..... Seeing her cute antics I do wanted a child for myself who is born due to me..... Seeing my brother's bond with his both kids made me crave one for me...

My mother wanted a daughter but I born to her again even anna have two boys...its not like we love the boys less but daughter always makes the home more beautiful and fulfilled...

I could have adopted to but I want my bloodline my genetics and mini version of me.... Call me conservative and back minded......I am into Blood is thicker than water...so yeah and I being brutally honest with you because we should not lie to doctor and lawyers right...... "

He said truthfully..... Sathya narrowed her eyes at him..

"So you married me just for having a baby of your own.... Really... "

She got down from the tabla and walked past him and sat on the bed in Indian style.... He furrowed  and asked her..

"Why did you said yes to this marriage.... "

"Nothing much... If we are going for divorce then I get to blame my parents and siblings for it... "

"Whaaattttttt!!!!!??!!!!!! "

Hearing her answer he was shocked... She just shrugged her shoulder and took the sweet box and picked one Bhadusha and took a bite....

"But why....???? "

"What do mean why..... I just want to blame them that's it......

You know divorce rate is less in arranged marriage compared to love marriage...

The main reason behind that is family support... If a love marriage couple going for divorce then their parents are more Supportive and willing to help... You know why... Because that will prove them right..... And they get to say this..

"That's why we say that... You should heard to us... You didn't that's why you are suffering... "

In arrianged marriages mostly divorces won't happen due to the lack of family support..... They won't accept the fact they are wrong even if they do they always try to mend the issue and keep the relationship alive even when it's died long back....

The parents and the society won't accept they are wrong... If by chance if we are going to divorce then surely I will directly put the blame on my parents right... That's why I agreed for arranged marriage.... "

He hummed and sat beside her and took an apple and bite it while she was licking her fingers as jeera is sticky and her hair was open and disturbing her falling in her eyes... So she put her hair in messy bun... He asked her again

"Why did you stop practicing law...not compulsion... If you want you can share  . "

Her face fell... She took a deep breath...

"I have to share someday... I don't want to get your sympathy so I try to say short version of it.

I choose to study law  actually I think back it's not my wish this is what they always said to me due to my inquisitive and hyper active nature the people around me keep on putting this thought in my mind that Lawyer profession is meant to me mine and I can't do well in others eventually I started believe that....

But when I became one and entered into the field that's when it hit me hard even though I studied with so much love and interest.. The field reality is not what I imagined it to be.... It was hard yet I managed to join as an junior to well known reputed advocate...

I couldn't digest the harsh reality the amount of negative impact it had on me was huge..still I managed to survive and finally got a case..

You know what happened to the victim on behalf of whom I found for.... "

She stopped.. Her eyes teared up her voice broke a little.... He wrapped his hand around her shoulder and held her one hand in his and pressed her palm lightly assuring that he was there for her.... She took a deep breath.....

"She was killed right in front of me and they tried to molest me to... They almost successful in that when the police came.....

Those three  years was horrible I diagnosed with PTSD and took therapy....

It took me whole 3 year to be normal... I don't think I fully recovered but compared to how I was now I am alright.....

I did tried to get back and fight but I couldn't do that.... I am a coward I know and I accept that....

I don't want to go out and fight for the rest of my life and become a reformer.... I am okay being the losser at least I will have a peaceful life...

I don't think everyone gets successful in their dream.. If they do I am happy for them.. I could do that... That doesn't going to take up the source of my survival from me....

Someone have to lose for someone to succeed.... It's just that I am okay being the former one than the later..."

She said looking at him... He signed.....

"You should not accept defeat easily Sathya..... You are strong.."

He was about to continue but she placed her palm over his mouth stopping him from speaking... She said..

"I don't want to go back to the same world which haunting me even now... So please don't give me any motivational speech to go back.... Let me be like this I don't want to be anyone's inspiration...... I am just a normal girl....

And I am not strong and surely I didn't accept the defeat easily.. I did fought to my best extent... I did tried that's enough. .. Don't talk about that further... "

She said and composed herself and wiped her tears..

"Sorry for spoiling the night for you...I didn't mean to..... "

She said and layed on the bed on her back....he layed beside her and took her hand in his..and ran his thumb over the back of her palm... He said...

"You didn't spoiled anything..... And I surely didn't came up with the hope of Romance.... I wanted to have a heartfelt coversation.. And we had more than that..... And you are strong"

She tilted her head and looked at him.. He gave her a assuring smile... She smiled back and cuddled to him placing her head on his chest.. He wrapped his hand on her frame... She took a deep breath and closed her eyes...

"Good night Sathya... "

She just smiles....